The past 6 months I've been running more than I ever have before. It's not only made me a better runner--I was thrilled when I started running an average of 40-45 miles a week in December--but renewed my love for running. I realized I wanted to continue challenging myself so I signed up for my first marathon AND triathlon. And of course, I still have that pesky 2 hour mark to break in the half!
All this has been possible for one main reason: I've been on a career break since September. I'd been working long hours and become frustrated with the work I was doing and the people I was working for. After 6 years it felt like the right time to go....and I consider myself very lucky to have been able to take some time off.
My plan was simple. To recover and relax, and take some time to think about what I should do next. Although I had a few random interviews and conversations, I didn't want to actively start looking for a job until after the new year. That meant I could really take a good chunk of time off until I started working again. And run, run, run!
But just before Christmas I got a job offer. Suddenly, I needed to make a decision about going back to the working world.
I spent a lot of time thinking about it over the holidays. For the past few weeks I've been negotiating as well as meeting a few of the people I'd be working with. So I can't stall any longer, and next week I have to let them know if I'm going to take the job.
Never, ever did I think that running would be a consideration when it came to deciding about my next job. It's a great opportunity but there would be long hours and travel. The reality is this job will average about 60 hours a week. I've done that before but now these questions keep playing over and over again in my head...
When will I fit in all my running? At my old job I never managed more that about 23 miles a week. How will I ever fit 45 miles in?
Even if I did fit 45 miles in, would I just be completely exhausted all the time?
What if I really can't find the time to run at all? What happens with my marathon? Or my triathlon?
What if taking this job means that running is no longer a priority?
Will this be the beginning of the end of my running life?
Some people might think that I'd be crazy not to take the job. But I've actually thought--maybe this is my chance! I can change my career! Try something new! I can have a job that allows me to ALWAYS make running a priority and leave those crazy hours behind.
But these kinds of thoughts can take years to ponder and now I'm down to a few days. I can't help feeling a little bit like I'm being held up and forced to choose between two incredibly important things.
So....my running or my job.
What would you do?